Sri Lanka - Studies

For the past few months I have been pouring over books and articles as part of one of my classes “A Natural Evolution of Religion.” Concurrently we've also been tracing the history of religion itself over the past several thousand years, and how the religion and cultures of various civilizations have been affected by politics, climate change, and natural disaster. The class is a small seminar, just 11 of us total, and has been a wonderful experience so far. In addition to the cornerstone reading for the class, each student gets to embark on their own individual journey. The topics chosen by my colleagues vary from the Tower of Babel to the First Council of Nicea and beyond. I'm focusing on the history of religion in Sri Lanka, and as I'm zeroing on my topic I'm leaning towards a topic less historical and of more relevance to the current struggle.

I've struggled a little bit in narrowing this down as I find most of what I am reading extraordinarily interesting, and it seems as though rabbit trails are quite easy to go on when doing this type of research. I'm leaning toward one of the following topics:

  • The role of religious freedom in Sri Lanka's ethnic struggle.
  • The problem of evangelism in modern Sri Lanka.
  • Dispelling myths of Sri Lankan culture (as a means of properly understanding the current religious tension).
  • The preservation of religious freedom in Sri Lanka.
  • The role of the Christian Church in conflict resolutionin Sri Lanka.
  • The result of colonialism: present day diverse Sri Lanka.
  • “Give me your poor” - the role of religion in modern day poverty and tragedy in Sri Lanka.
  • The role of U.S. citizens in Sri Lankan religious struggles.
  • “Heaven on Earth” - the ulterior motives behind philanthropic endeavors in 'third world' countries.

I'll post some summaries of recent articles I've read soon. In the meantime... if anybody has any insights or thoughts, let me know. (Cousins, I'm especially talking to YOU!)

US State Department raps both Sri Lankan government and LTTE for human right violations

"Feb 26, Washington, D.C.: The United States Department of State in its 2008 country reports on human right practices flayed the Government of Sri Lanka for its poor human right record and accused the LTTE of killing and abusing a large number of civilians." Article: Sri Lanka, 2 - 26 - 2009: US State Department raps both Sri Lankan government and LTTE for human right violations

The full report can be found here: http://www.state.gov/g/drl/rls/hrrpt/2008/sca/119140.htm

Not sure how I feel about this. While I do think we should be active globally, is the US in a good place to chide other countries about human rights violations?

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What’s the biggest change that has happened to you as an adult?

Blog Homework! Below you will find my response to the following question, from my class blog:

"What’s the biggest change that has happened to you as an adult? Describe it and talk about how you’ve responded to it."

I'm very interested in how the readers of my blog would answer the above. What is the biggest change that has happened to YOU?

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As I thought about what I would write for this post, I first thought through the most obvious changes that have happened in my adult life.

Surely, moving 2,000 miles away from my immediate family to the snowy tundra of Minnesota was a pretty big change. (For the record, my family still thinks I'm crazy.)

Perhaps starting a nonprofit gallery was a big change. It definitely has taken up quite a bit of time! However, when looking at the gallery objectively, it seems like starting it was more of a “process” then a single change, and that the process was triggered by something else entirely.

I think there have been so many events in varying scale that it would be hard to pinpoint one event over another to be the biggest “change.” I think the “change” that has had the most significant change on my life wasn't a job, a move or a relationship, but more of a change in how I view my placement in any given situation. Though might sound rather morbid, the most positive significant change I made was when I stopped viewing situations only through the lens of “what I want while I'm here?” to “what happens when I am gone?”

Death wasn't a stranger to my family, but as I aged the reality that one could die at any age became increasingly apparent. I think we all go through the process of losing the immortality we feel when we are young. We stop doing reckless things and start being more careful with our actions. Though I never felt entirely 'immortal,' I can say that I began contemplating my own mortality at a very young age, with increasing urgency as I grew older. “What about when I'm gone” was never a foreign question really, just one that I attended to with increasing practicality over time.

One of the jobs that I had throughout college was working for a small, family run manufacturing company. Though first hired as a temp receptionist, they realized I had a wide variety of computer skills and quickly put me to work in other areas of the company. Over the next few years, a remarkable thing happened: everybody that could got pregnant got pregnant - at least once. (A few became pregnant more than once and no, not all at once.) Over the course of my 6 years with the company, in addition to my own tasks, I covered for anybody who was out on maternity leave. This helped the company by decreasing potential rollover and maintaining some continuity within the office. It helped me tremendously because in a short while, I had learned all of the various aspects of running an office – from accounting, to human resources, to shipping, and more. I was also able to objectively view how all the little components worked together and I did what I could to streamline systems and computerize processes. (A side note: I also never drank the company water, because it did seem at times that pregnancy was contagious, and I wasn't quite ready for that!) Jokes aside, the most important thing I learned from this process was that sometimes it is not only important to a company what one does on the job while one is present, but what happens when that person is gone as well. The view that “I'll/she/they will always be around to take care of it” can be incredibly unrealistic. What will happen when they are gone?

Taking that “what happens when I'm gone” view and applying it to my own life, I made a series of key decisions. First and foremost, I wanted my work efforts to go toward something positive, something I could die and be content with how I spent my time. Since then, I've tried to incorporate this mentality into how I earn a living by considering with what company I work as well as with what tasks I do.

The gallery is an interesting experiment in this regard. Most people begin a company with the end-goal of being self employed or sometimes, getting rich and not being employed at all. Though the possibility of earning a living through the gallery has been brought to the table at times, the overarching, long-term goal is to develop a sustainable organization that remains a resource for the community even when I'm gone. That's not meant to sound entirely morbid. Perhaps I decide to pursue a PhD and need to move on. Perhaps somebody in my family gets very sick and I have to return to California for an extended amount of time. Life is about more than just what is a part of my day-to-day, and if I plan accordingly neither I nor my organization will be entirely overwhelmed if or when life happens.

I hope this post didn't come across as doom and gloom. Most of you know me at least a little bit by now, at least well enough to know that I don't walk around like a nihilist saying “we're all going to die, nothing matters anyway.” I also can't say that I'm entirely consistent with this process, and have had to make compromises along the way in order to work toward broader goals. I share this with you mainly because by and large, I think that changing how I view my role and how it affects others “when I'm gone” has had the positive counter-effect of making better decisions, ones that make me happier “while I'm here.”

Thanks for reading,

-Jamie

A footnote: My dog however, does not express the same sentiment towards being considerate of others when she is gone. If somebody in the class might be willing to make copies of pages 301-332 of the Leadership Challenge book I would greatly appreciate it - sometimes the “my dog ate my homework” situation really does happen.

Random Thoughts - Ae and the Future

Ae is quickly approaching its (her?) 5 year birthday. Though still getting our balance financially in a very shaky economy, structurally things are getting better and better.

As we open things up more and as we nurture transparency within the organization, we are rewarded with greater participation and better engagement all across the board. We are seeing more initiative on the part of our board members and volunteers as they assume more active roles and responsibilities. Our interns have become an integral part of our organization, continuing our mission as they go through their own learning processes. Though I am still very much engaged throughout the organization, the additional help and support has freed me up to work more earnestly on infrastructure and sustainability. All things considered, I feel quite fortunate to be where we are currently at.

Though as with any organization there are things to be concerned about, I'm very excited about 2009 and what the end of this year will bring for Ae, both creatively and for the organization as a whole. I'm excited for the day when we will have a communicable version of this construction, one we can hopefully share with other arts organizations in the community.

I've been watching the burgeoning shifts in the business world with excitement. I wonder what the next few years will bring for the business world as a whole, and how the sharing of information and spread of technology will shape and shift the business and education structures we are so entangled in.

Blogging homework!

We have to blog as part of our classwork. As you can imagine, I'm super peeved about it. (yay!) We even have a class blog, which you can see here:Today was my week to lead the blog discussion, so I'm putting my post up here as well. For posterity and such.

Seven Zones for Leadership – Acting Authentically in Stability and Chaos

Good evening!

As I read through the excerpts from “The Challenges of Leadership,” I followed the advice of the author. “This book will be most helpful to you if you keep your own organization in mind as you read and reflect.” That is precisely what I did, and with this post I plan to share a part of that process with you.

I enjoyed the last class discussion greatly and think the diversity of perspectives in the class make each discussion lively and thorough. I look forward to reading about how you related this reading to your organization and in what ways you found it helpful (or not helpful.)

A bit of background information: the organization I'm “internalizing” this process with is Altered Esthetics, a nonprofit community art gallery in Northeast Minneapolis. Our mission is to sustain artists' role as a voice of society and we do so through group exhibits, artists discussions, and more. We work with a lot of emerging artists as well as quite a few established artists, both locally and internationally. We're just under 5 years old and have been working actively towards a sustainable, community-centered structure.

As many startup organizations we began with a more hierarchical structure, with much radiating from the founder/director. As we've grown, we've pushed toward a more heterarchical/flat structure. This is for several reasons, sustainability but a heterarchical structure also encourages active engagement with the community. We're in the process of this transfer, so applying these organizational and leadership tools is both interesting and useful – often times it helps point out the ways we are doing well while also helping to clue us in to things we can do better.

Since the author tied the zones along with the segments of the action wheel, I will do the same here. I'll review what the wheel segment and correlating zone is, then apply my own questions and experience to the puzzle.

Existence The history that limits and launches what we do Zone 1: Serving the Past

A few years ago, as we looked at our current structure and thought about how we would grow, we asked ourselves: what are the things we have done well in the past? What worked in the past for our organization and the people we serve, and what didn't? In what ways have we seen other organizations in the community succeed and/or fail? What methods and ethics do we want to continue, and what do we want to change? The organization itself was born out of a need in the arts community. We wanted to make sure that as we grew, we kept our function and mission at the center of our processes and actions.

Resources The things that we use in what we do Zone 2: Building Core Competencies

We asked ourselves, what are the resources we currently have as an organization? What are our needs, and how will we separate wants from needs?

The structure we are growing into was born both out of the current strengths, while allowing room to grow to fill our areas of weakness. It was not established overnight, but was created after months of examination and deliberation of what we do not need to do, what we should do, what we have to do, what we do well and what we can do better.

Structure The form and process that support and sustain what we do Zone 3: Systems Thinking Zone 3a: Designing Sustainable Systems Zone 3b: Affirming Shared Identity

Finding a sustainable structure for a nonprofit arts organization was tricky territory. How does one create a structure that promotes sustainability, considers accountability, yet encourages creativity within both the members as well as the people the organization serves? Accessibility and engagement were key clues for this transition. Accessibility to the community and the members of the board, and engagement across all platforms. Finding a structure that allowed board members and participants to be unique participants of a shared collective was also tricky. To make this process successful, we all had to think with more “we” and less “I.” Fortunately, our shows and our mission is much about collaboration, and fortunately many of us had already learned firsthand that often the best results come out of a collaborative, labor intensive process.

Power The commitment and passion that energize what we do Zone 4: Creating Ownership

I've been a part of several nonprofits that have had “sitting” board members. Not very engaged, not very helpful, for lack of a better term, they served as seat warmers. We wondered: how could we engage board members in a way that was helpful to the organization? We did this by creating specific roles for board members beyond the traditional roles of Chair, Secretary, and Treasurer. The first edition of this was NOT a final draft, nor is it a final draft. As we transition, we are working with current board members, finding strengths and weaknesses, and filling positions not just based on the needs of the organization but also based on the skills and strengths of the board members themselves.

(A chart of the board structure can be found here: http://www.alteredesthetics.org/wiki/tikiwiki-2.2/show_image.php?id=4&thumb=1)

Mission The aim and priority that give direction to what we do Zone 5: Focusing on the Future Zone 5a: Setting Direction Zone 5b: Anticipating Change

How does one reconcile a myriad of opinions, skills, weaknesses, and desires? Our organization solved this by making sure everything was driven by our mission. “Altered Esthetics works to sustain the historical role of artists as a voice of society through our exhibits, events, services, workshops and programs.” You might call it a “mission filter.” Though initially this filter might seem easier for nonprofits, I think for-profit businesses can have a solid, engaging mission as well. For example – eBay's mission is “to provide a global trading platform where practically anyone can trade practically anything.” For eBay, accessibility and openness is key. Target's mission is “to drive sales profitably while delivering a Target brand shopping experience.” My point is this: missions don't have to be entirely altruistic to be a good filter as an organizational goal.

Often times during our board meetings you'll hear the question pop up “Well, how would that reflect our mission?” or “What does that say about Ae? (Altered Esthetics)” We've avoided several bad choices simply by reminding ourselves why we are around in the first place, and what our long-term mission is.

Setting direction was a huge component of transition. We didn't just “switch” into a new board structure. Change involved and involves long-term implementation. Along with new structure came timeline, goals, and tools of measure. This also wasn't a one-stop, permanent change.

Meaning The justification and significance that tell us why or for what we do what we do Zone 6: Creating Meaning in Chaos

If you take a look at the board structure we created, you'll notice that there are lots of dotted lines or fuzzy boundaries between our board, the community we serve, the community we are in, our interns and our volunteers. While having roles is a good “guideline,” being in touch with the people connected to our organization has only helped us as we've grown. In other words – we've gotten more out of inviting artists, volunteers, and community members to be a part of our conversation than we have by shutting them out. By listening to our constituency we've also been able to make some important changes.

Fulfillment The completed action that embraces existence, resources, structure, power, mission, and meaning. Zone 7: Serving the Promise of Authenticity. Zone 7a: Making Wise Choices Zone 7b: Probing Deeper

Well. As far as being “complete,” I can't say that we're quite there yet. I like to think as an organization we'll always be susceptible and willing to change.

I think as long as we're operating though our mission we can practice authenticity. As we grow fortunately there are other organization we can look to – such as the Minnesota Council of Nonprofits – for help making wise choices. (Tools such as the “Principles and Practices of Nonprofit Excellence” have been tremendously helpful.)

I think as long as we continue to ask the question “how can we do what we do better” both of our selves and our constituencies we can constantly probe deeper and grow as an organization.

About the reading

Though I tend to be wary of “maps” and “steps to success,” I must admit throughout our planning we did include many of these components, at least in some capacity. The one thing I found somewhat lacking in this reading – and perhaps this comes later in the text – was any discussion of “soft skills” that would accompany this type of transition. For an example, as we grew as an organization, not everybody was on board with change. People communicated at different paces and with different comfort zones. We gained board members as past members trickled out. Maintaining communication and connectivity throughout this process was and is key. I think those gray areas of these types of transition are unique from organization to organization.

About the author

While doing a little bit of research about the author, I came across the following memorial. While I wasn't 100% sure that this is the same author, after some additional library hunts, I'm fairly certain. Perhaps Dr. Crosby can confirm this. In any case, I wanted to share this with you, so you have a little background on who wrote this text and what he's done as a leader, helping other people lead.

“It is with deep regret that we inform you that Bob Terry, Ph.D., founder of Mobius Leadership International, died peacefully in his sleep on September 20, 2002, due to complications of ALS (Lous Gehrigs disease).

Bob Terry, Ph.D. Former president of Mobius Leadership International, was a leadership architect, executive mentor, author, public speaker and seminar conductor, and peer advisor to leadership educators in the Twin Cities. As Director of the Reflective Leadership Center at the Hubert H. Humphrey Institute at the University of Minnesota and scholar in leadership studies, plus having led a for profit organization, he was positioned uniquely as a leadership educator. Bob was known for his depth of content, delightful sense of humor, passion for the subject matter and total engagement with his audiences, clients and customers.”

(source)

Questions:

What role do you play in your own organization?

How could you apply/have you applied the “zones” to your own organization?

What are some of the “soft skills” that you think go along with being a good leader?

What areas, if any, do you think the “action wheel” or “zone” left out?

Helpful Links: Minnesota Council of Nonprofits – Principles and Practices for Nonprofit Excellence: http://mncn.org/info_principles.htm

About Facebook.

Hrm. And all this time, we thought he was talking about wonderland. Mad People

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked.

"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."

"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice.

"You must be," said the Cat, "or else you wouldn't have come here."

Altered Esthetics - Board Sustainability Presentation

After doing research about leaderless organizations and writing the Ae Case Study, I had to present a new structure to the board. This is the simple presentation I used. I outlined the past structures of Ae, our goals, the new structure and my proposal for implementation.

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Altered Esthetics Structure and Sustainability Board Presentation by J. R. Schumacher is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-Share Alike 3.0 United States License.

My research and writing

I spent a good deal of time last fall writing two rather extensive papers that, while well researched academically, are also quite practical in both business and academic settings. My original intent was to submit these papers for publication. Instead, I'm posting them here and sending them out and about.

I'm doing this for several reasons.

1) I believe knowledge should be shared. Seriously! I believe this sharing of information falls in line with my own personal goals. Don't get me wrong, I do hope to write something for publication in an academic journal at some point. (In fact, hopefully I will have many of those opportunities in the future!) However, the process for submission, review and publication is quite lengthy, and much of this information might be of use sooner rather than later. This also isn't to say that "I know everything" about these topics by any means - only that I've done quite a bit of research along these lines and I'm putting these out there freely on the off chance I am able to help some non profits get some insight.

2) I want to introduce folks to "Creative Commons" licensing. "Creative Commons is a nonprofit corporation dedicated to making it easier for people to share and build upon the work of others, consistent with the rules of copyright. (They) provide free licenses and other legal tools to mark creative work with the freedom the creator wants it to carry, so others can share, remix, use commercially, or any combination thereof." In other words - their mission is to foster and promote learning, sharing, and creativity. Anybody that knows me well knows why I'm all over this.

3) I hope to get feedback. That means from you, from anybody you share this with - I would love to hear your thoughts and feedback. Innovation in global philanthropy, especially in terms of new media communications, is an area where I'll be working and researching for a long time now. This field is a unique junction of academia, business, and media. There are no hard boundaries and anything you have to contribute to this dialogue is much welcome and much appreciated.

4) I could not have written this without the research and work of others for me. At this point in my career, I believe this is the best way for me to continue and contribute to this ongoing academic dialogue.

This may not wind up being a good idea - only time will tell. In the meantime...

My writings and research page - a list of academic articles and case studies.

Useful Links Creative Commons.org

Level_13!!!

Last Friday we opened the third installment of Level_13, Ae's Biennial video game art show. It was... incredibly fun. Jobot played again, along with Caly McMorrow and Mike the 2600 King. Level 13 - Jamie, Liz, Kova and Toneski The curators for the show - Me, Liz, Kova and Toneski.

Level 13 - Jamie and Jim Me and my buddy Jim.

Level 13 - Steve and Nora My friend Nora (Jim's beautiful wife) and my friend Steve.

Pictures are courtesy of Digital Crush Photography - one of our veteran board member's (Kate Iverson's) photography business.

Too many pictures of me in this post but... blog posts w/out pictures aren't as much fun. :) Plus, my sweater is super sweet.

Last night

Last night on the way home from school, I took a slightly different route that took me under the West River Parkway side of the newly reconstructed 35W Bridge. Under the 35 W Bridge

The pathway under the 35W bridge.

I was struck by the beauty of the white concrete and light against the peacefull nighttime snowy sky. The picture doesn't do it justice...

Is it November already?

Since we returned from Tacoma things have been moving at an increasingly rapid pace.  I should be hitting the books pretty hard right now but I thought it would be fun to just take a moment and reflect on the past few weeks... and also to start downloading the images I've been taking with my google phone (woohoo!)... There will be time for more studying tonight. Plus, I'm proud of everything we've done in the past few weeks at the gallery and want to post a few pics! So here goes: Friday October 24th, we had a closing reception for the Tales from the Black Lodge show featuring Mouth Babies. (yes, that's their name.)

Tales Closing Reception

Sometimes the gallery is definitely more play than work. :)

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I juggled a few meetings around so we could attend a Wild game with Nick's cousins. I like spending time with family, but I'm starting to think hockey just isn't my game. (This was my second hockey game, ever...)

The Wild

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At work on Halloween we took the afternoon off to carve pumpkins together. We also watched Attack of the Killer Tomatoes and Shaun of the Dead. Guess which pumpkin is mine?

Work Pumpkins

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Halloween at home was pretty mellow. Nick had a guitar he wanted to try and I had a paper to write, so we stayed home, watched another movie (Wallace and Gromit) and carved pumpkins.

Now there's really no guessing which one is mine!

Pumpkins

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In between working at Bicycle Theory and writing papers, things have been very busy at Ae. We were getting ready for the fastest turnaround in our wee history. Saturday morning Nov 1st, we took down the Black Lodge show (one of our largest shows ever) and hung the Día De Los Muertos exhibit and celebration. The festivities took place on Sunday, culminating with a candlelight procession around Logan Park.

http://purenoumena.org/images/2008-11-02_CandlelightProcession.jpg

We took down the show on Sunday night, and on Monday we began hanging the 3rd installment of our biennial video game art show, Level_13.

--- Tuesday was of course the election. After voting, work, and class - we got to see Bob Dylan play at the University!

Bob Dylan

The show was incredible and it made for a pretty incredible election night experience as well.  Many folks were on their various cell phones/iPhones/etc throughout the night, and about halfway through the set a murmur started to filter through the crowd "they're calling it for Obama, they're calling it for Obama." Dylan and the band stepped off stage before the encore and when the returned, Bob Dylan said "looks like things are gonna be changing" and the crowd pretty much freaked out.  After he was done, everybody gave him a standing ovation... and shortly afterward the crowd was chanting "Obama! Obama!" As we were seated on the balcony, we chatted waited for the masses to disperse rather than struggle with the crowds. Once we finally emerged, we saw a scene outside the auditorium... A drum circle surrounded by hundreds of people, girls running around shrieking "OBAMA! OBAMA!" like it was a greco-roman festival.

Obamafest

Somebody got a pretty good video from the center of the crowd: YouTube.

We went to Stub and Herb's to get some food and watch the election speech, returning home after that.

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Last but not least: on Wednesday, a bat flew into the office. He was super cute and wanted to stay, but the boys moved him outside. (and were able to do so thanks to Jeremy's awesome ninja bat catching skillz.)

This is the best picture I could get:

http://purenoumena.org/images/2008-11-05_Bat.jpg

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Friday night was the Level_13 opening... and I'll post some pictures of that later. Meanwhile, time to study... I just got scolded.

I VOTED!

I woke up early today, proofed my paper for class one last time and printed out a final copy. Nick woke up early too, so he could vote before work. As I was getting ready to leave,  Nick offered to give me a ride to work so could go and wait in line together before voting. Nick put my bike in his car and I printed out our voter guides from http://theballot.org/.

We got to the polls before 8:30, and the lines were surprisingly shorter than they were in the primaries (then again, I did my primary voting in the evening.) As we got out of the car I couldn't stop beaming.

Voting!

As I walked through the door to East Side Neighborhood services I have to admit I teared up just a little. The first East Side Neighborhood services building opened in 1915 to serve immigrant, refugee and low income individuals and families. Our neighborhood has always been diverse, and the new building is another amazing resource for the community.  My mother came to this country from Poland and my Father came from Sri Lanka... and I couldn't help but think about them and their path to America years before they met, years before I was born...

I was a bit wary after reading the news and was pleasantly surprised after I arrived. East Side Neighborhood services was extremely well organized. The volunteers were efficient, friendly and helpful. I don't think I stopped smiling the whole time I was there.

I saw a young Somali couple and the husband translating the volunteer's instructions for her so she could understand where to go and what to do.

I saw a kid's voting booth set up and a bunch of little kids, excited to cast their "vote" too.

I saw a bunch of wonderful volunteers that gave up their day to help people like me have a chance to vote.

I sat down at a table and filled out my ballot. As the volunteers collected unused pens, they respectfully did so without looking at what we were doing. I was so excited I wanted to take a picture of my ballot, but didn't think that would be appropriate as I had chosen to sit at one of the open, non-private tables. Nick finished before I did and waited for me outside. I wrapped up my ballot in the privacy-folder and walked over to the machine. After waiting in another small line, I submitted my votes.  Voter #547 for the day.

I Voted!

Taking a picture of myself with my new phone is tricky... but the point comes across.

WOOHOO!

Trip to Washington

We arrived in Tacoma late Thursday night, and headed over to Peter and Carmen's.  It was too late to go out, so we sat out on the porch of "Plum Cottage" and caught up. It was nighttime when we arrived, but here's a view from Plum Cottage for your reference. View of Puget Sound=awesome.

Plum Cottage

The next morning, after an awesome breakfast of Pumpkin Pancakes (thanks Carmen!) we picked Peter up from PLU and headed to Olympia for the evening. (After a brief stop for coffee and food). After a failed attempt to investigate the old Olympia brewery, we headed into town for drinks and a show. We discovered my camera was broken but Carmen was kind enough to share her camera with me so I could be touristy and take lots of pics.

After wandering around Olympia for awhile, we headed to McMenamins. (mmm.) The leaves were turning and most of the streets looked like this: Colorful, beautiful, and kind of fuzzy. Maybe that was the beer. ;)

Olympia, Leaves

We had dinner at a yummy fish place and then we went to a place called Le Voyuer. The band we went to see failed to show up, but instead we were treated to an awesome performance by Quinn Deveaux.

The night was magical.

Quinn Deveaux

Awww.

Olympia, Aww

The next morning we woke up relatively early, enjoyed a continental breakfast (with an awesome waffle maker), got some coffee and wandered down to the Farmer's Market and walked along the water.

Nick is really mastering the "hold the camera out and take a picture of us both" trick."

At the Water

I think this is the only picture we have of all four of us from the weekend. Aww... BFF.

All Four

Carmen thought these were interesting and took a pic. I'm not sure what kind of berries they are...

Olympia, Berries

Otters are cute. Even Denis Leary thinks so.

Olympia, Otters

After our day in Olympia we headed to Seattle. Mmmmm more coffee. We went to the EMP and checked out the art galleries and book stores in the area. Notice how it is hardly raining in any of the pics? The weather was incredible while we were there.

Seattle

Sunday was all about me and my dorkdom;)

We drove up to Snoqualmie, where they filmed a good deal of the "Twin Peaks" series. Before our tour of Snoqualmie, we stopped for coffee. No kidding!

Our first stop was to Snoqualmie Falls.

I got nice shot of the falls before we hiked down to the bottom. breathtaking!

Snoqualmie Falls

here's a pic from the show for your reference:

Twin Peaks - The Great Northern

After viewing the falls from the platform we hiked down to the water.

As we hiked through the woods we encountered.. A FUZZY CATERPILLAR!!!

Snoqualmie Fuzzy Caterpillar

A FUZZY TREE BRANCH!

Fuzzy Tree

...and a Tree on a Tree! among other things.

Tree On A Tree

We hiked down to the water and I scrambled out on to the rocks. The scenery was awesome. "Ahhhhhh!"

Snoqualmie Falls

Don't ask me how I got back to the shore.

More scrambling to an awesome (but slippery) rock at the bottom of the falls.

J-me at the Falls

Nick did not join me on the slippery rock, but he captured the moment. Thanks!

Nick=awesome.

Nick at the Falls

Perfecting that shot again. you can even see the lodge in this one!

Snoqualmie Njme

Much has changed about the town since the show was filmed, unfortunately some for the worse. Much of the woods were torn down to make way for condos. Ronette's bridge, however, was turned into a bike path. This change isn't as bad as some of the other changes (IMO.)

Ronette's Bridge

Bike path:

Ronette's Bike Path

The R&R Diner (Twede's Cafe) was damaged by arsonists a few years ago. When they rebuilt the diner unfortunately they decided to go for a "newer" theme... so instead of the awesome retro classic diner inside, you have a generic diner with walls covered in Tweety Birds. (I'm not kidding. COVERED.) The pie is still awesome, however the coffee is "damn fine," and the back area has lots of memorabilia and pictures.  They are definitely cashing in on the link to the series... as you can see from the sign.

Damn Fine Coffee!

On Monday we spent the day actually in Tacoma, where they are living now.

We checked out the Dale Chihuly works downtown - fantastic!

Dale Chihuly

We got some coffee and went to the bookstore. More coffee, seriously? Ya! Srsly!

We drove around Tacoma and drove through the national park. It was absolutely gorgeous - quite bog-like in fact and not a huge amount different than some of the areas in upstate Minnesota. While driving through the woods, we saw some racoons.  OH HOW CUTE! - so I rolled down the window to take a picture.  Two racoons quickly turned into four as more approached... 5... 6... 7...

We started rolling up the windows and by the time we drove quickly and carefully away, we counted over 15 raccoons following us. This is the only clearish picture I got, of the first two we saw.

Tacoma Racoons

We went to the Hub for dinner (and Peter's Birthday) after getting more coffee and stopped at the Harmon Pub after dinner. I guess that was kind of the running theme for the weekend: food, coffee, beer, coffee, pictures, more food, pictures, beer.

One, two, three - Aww.

Tacoma - The Harmon Pub

All in all it was an awesome vacation... productive (sights-wise) and relaxing all at the same time. I was able to turn my brain off for a little while, so to speak. We got to see lots of places and spend a lot of time with Peter and Carmen. We saw the new place they will be moving to and toured Peter's office at PLU as well. I was a little weepy on the way back to the airport and now I'm I've got a little bit of the post-vacation blues... fortunately I've got a lot to keep myself busy over the next few weeks. (surprise surprise.)

I'm keeping my chin up though.... we're already planning our next trip.

Perfect afternoon at the U of M...

I biked to school straight from work, and had a little bit of time to read outside before going in to class. It was PERFECT outside and lying on the grass felt just like heaven. Perfect Day...

Perfect Day...

The building in the middle is Blegen Hall, where my class is. Perfect Day...

The middle green bike is my awesome long haul trucker. I love that I can bike to school - I can park right in front of our building! My commute to Fullerton was 40 miles round trip. (Uphill both ways!) Perfect Day...

Ae Volunteer Recognition Event - Oktoberfest

Altered Esthetics held our first Volunteer Recognition Event - Oktoberfest Style! My mom, Noelle and I cooked over 30 lbs of mashed potatoes, 70 awesome bratwurst and played polka music throughout the night. It was a blast! Having my parents in town was awesome, our awesome volunteers were there, I got to wear my lederhosen, it really just doesn't get any better than that you know? Liz, Curatorial Superstar and Toneski, Board Secretary Extraordinaire.

Toneski and Liz

Tony and Mindy - having a "really good time!!!"

<br /> Noelle and Natalie

Noelle, our Board Treasurer and Natalie, one of our volunteers who is super awesome (and might I add - the ONLY OTHER PERSON besides myself that dressed for the event!)

Tony and Mindy

Nick and Jamie. Awwwww

Jamie and Nick

More Oktoberfest Pictures here

First Post

If you're looking for a compelling history or reams of archives, you won't find it here. Many years ago I had a livejournal, and what you read below was my very first blog post. Blogging was a great help for me as I began to carve out my path in life and figure out who I wanted to be. I received a tremendous amount of  guidance and support from my friends on livejournal and in the general blogosphere as I crafted and revised a lot of life decisions. Though I value the time I spent having those online dialogues, I've decided to spare the general public from the earlier conversations. (You're welcome!)

I'm starting a "fresh" blog as I embark on the next stage in my life and career. Thank you for checking out my blog, and happy reading!

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As I was sorting through elements from a finished relationship - bits and pieces of things - memories - I felt as though I was sorting through clusters of egg shells - shards and shards- casings of something that isn’t there- I don’t like the little things.

the anniversaries. the trinkets. the cards.

They are all shells.

Shells that are supposed to remind us of something good that was there.

Boxes full of eggshells can’t hide the hollowness inside. Boxes full of casings can’t create something to hold them up.

Either it is there, or it is not.

We create shells all the time. We create shells to feign importance where there really is nothing. We create shells to hide the people that we really are. We create shells to protect ourselves from other people. We create shells to dull reality because for some reason, we often think it is the shell that matters most. We are fooled by shells because we think it is an accurate representation of what’s inside … but it isn’t. I want to remove all the shells from my life, and have only the things that matter. I want to remove all my shells and be myself, whoever that is.

This live journal is either a really bad idea, or a really good idea.

Here is me as I try to be without my shells.